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2009-07-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

dear diary
you'll be the only space that i can type anything without caring about what the world thinks. no one will know about this site perhaps marc in the future but for now, its just me typing here.
Anyway, the whole purpose of this blog is for me to write everything that is about to happen between marc and i so i wouldn't have to ever forget any unforgettable moments.
But for now, i shall begin with when i first knew him. the picture above was taken during NLE in March2007
that was when marc and i saw each other and waved bye to each other. i still remember vividly telling yo about marc at that point of time. I guess he really has the ability to attract me in a way even when i was only 14years old. HAHAHA.
Leon became my friend and he sort of knew i found marc cute.
Marc sent me a friendster message to tell me he saw my photo at sg girls and told me to becareful
Marc talked to me during leader's camp2007 telling me about how concern he was for leon and jianing and we talked in sentosa till midnight
Marc and i began talking during the camp and we talked on msn and we started texting
Both our emails had angel inside. He was whiteangel and i was sweetangel. COOOOOL :)
He told me on msn that i had to call him cuz he had something to tell me. And guess what! He said that he's beginning to be attracted to me and we had to stop talking so he'll be able to stop.
I think we tried? And i became lesbian and lied to him all the way till the day i ended with her.
After my relationship with wenjia, marc confessed to me again. But i remember he always said that i was too young. Then i found another girl. And after her, marc was still there for me. I'm touched and shocked by the way he was able to stay faithful to someone and really be there knowing nothing was happening. That was when everything between me and him started. We talked everyday and i believe i was happy. On the first day we went out together in september 2008, We went jogging and escape together. It was the day i held so closely to my heart. We got super close eversince and couldn't let a day pass without talking to each other. And suddenly on september 27 marc went for dragonboat camp. He texted me that we were just friends and he is a true man of god and he believed he went overboard and should not have and we'll always be good buddies. I could barely count the days i went crazily upset about that. i cried everynight and rejoice whenever he texts me which was only once in a blue moon at that point of time. I went through that for nearly 2months till he finally talked to me. 1st jan 2009 he surprised me. He met me and made me get stuff for him as he lied to me his good friend was going abroad and he had to get things for her. We went to the park with balloons, a card and an anklet. Everything ended up to be all for me. I was really elated and nothing could express how happy i was. Not long later he confessed to me again and i finally told him i liked him too. He was in shock for damn long and couldn't believe i did. Everything was great until March when he went to china to study, i went for an underage party at zouk. He found out and there was a big argument about it and i didn't know what came over me but i told him i lost all my feelings for him. I was really clueless about how he felt about it, but i was really a big bitch to do that to him when we were supposed to wait for each other..
In may i regretted my actions like hell and decided to talk to him to try and make things better and make up for the mistakes i made. Thank God everything was good and we went back to normal. He started to meet me to study and that was when we took our first ID photo! He even asked me to sit with him in church when he usually didn't dare to talk to me in church. We started hanging out more often, going for supper together, meeting and going out. I even recorded every single day that i went out with him because it really meant alot to me. June2009 he confessed to me and i confessed to him too. He was the only person i dare to confess to! We decided to go somewhere from where we were. We decided to stay by each other and not leave each other. He said to trust him because everything he does is all because he wants the best for me. I believe that was when i really felt the love and care from him and it was the start for us. Im touched that -he is able to care for me before himself -leave his work aside just to come and meet me -send me home when its late, tiring, have to wake up early the next day and when he has so much work to do before sleeping -love me for who i am -stay by me through whatever that had happened enough for the first post, i'll come back. I never knew i could be so happy with you around me, i really hope this will last :)

You

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